abused is the role of the angel

every day is 9/11. every thing is 9/11 baby

i get abused every day of my life i have been abused by every one i have ever loved and i have been abused by every one i have ever trusted this is not an exaggeraiton i am abandoned by every one a broken heart is a million peices and it gives u more hearts to love with every day is 9/11 for me that is the role of a martyr that is the role of an angel that is what they dont tell u when u are born of light from the trenches. i am on fire it is only humane to stomp me out before i blind u before i singe u dont u want to kill me?break me into more it is more to love with. i am infectious i am contagion u claw at the throat i am the the antidote i am anxious lull and pacing around the room and inevitability it always leads back to us it always ends the same. do u love me is that why u are yelling is that why u are hurting me it is always the same i am sorry for every thing that i have done and every thing that i can not do and i am sorry for making ur heart i did not break ur heart i only made ur heart u are alive now this is what it feels like forever so i am sorry for that do u want to kill me its ok if u want to kill me i am used to being hurt thats what it feels like ur an angel now too